Dedmind - rockin'

When Dragons and Horses Meet

2010-12-14T08:54:00.000+08:00

I forgot to continue to make the story. This life is so busy. Hehe. When I tried to read the things that I have done, I found it good. If I'll find time working with this, I will continue it.

Maybe someday I could be as good as those writers someday. :)

Just a quick message

2010-09-24T01:38:00.005+08:00

..to say hi to those who still visit this blog.

It's been a long time ago since this blog was established. I am planning for new innovations using this blog in the future. Maybe it'll become a hosted blog for my self and etc.

So, see you again guys in the future.

I am having a hungry mind

2010-06-05T21:45:00.003+08:00

In most cases, I always think of how to gain money online.
Up until now, since last year 2008, were blogging was first introduced to me, I am still unable to get money from blogging.

Right now, I have 25.04 USD in my Google Adsense.
I just noticed that I have slow income after August 2008, I wondered why.

Still, I am going to continue blogging in all my blogs.
I hope I can have my money generating blog totally. I don't have a blog of choice. I can't concentrate on one topic only. And maybe that's the reason why I am so slow.

I can't manage to post one topic per day. Which is, and most probably the important thing rather than the design. Which I really love to tweak always.

You have witnessed how hard it was to get my adsense back to normal. But when I was able to get it, it generate money so slow. I guess I'll just study again in these things in the future.

Thanks for reading the quick post guys.

First Studio Pic

2010-04-11T18:32:00.003+08:00

This was an unplanned Studio Pic. That day was our defense for the SAD and she has a pictorial for their JPAMA event. We're both wearing good attires that time so we decided to have a picture then. And that picture is what you see above. Hope it looks good to you guys :D

Paypal Withdrawal Limit

2010-03-13T20:08:00.003+08:00

Last week I ran into trouble with regards to Paypal withdrawal accounts.
I got a limit of 0.00 to withdraw. What the hell?

First let us talk about WHY THERE IS A LIMIT?
One main reason is for security. Paypal needs to secure that your money will be transferred to your proper account. What I mean here is a bank account that is really yours and approved. Through that, Paypal can secure that your money is transferred to your account.

How to take out the limit?
To take out the limit you must verify your bank account. The actions that Paypal do to make sure that the account you entered to Paypal is correct and does match with your name in your bank is to send a minimum of money to your account in 2 to 3 business days after you entered a bank account.

Then when you receive this in your bank you need to know the money Paypal sent to you and then enter it to the bank account validation page. After you entered the money Paypal sent to you, your account will now be valid and then you will no longer have limits.

Now you can transfer money to your bank account how much you want within the range of your money.

What I think about Tumblr

2010-02-26T21:01:00.004+08:00

Without references and without trying tumblr. Just based on what I see.
Judging the book by its scratch.

Why did I say scratch? Tumblr is just another platform for blogging. But it is rather in unique way. Photos! Photos are great for blogging and tweeting. As what everyone knows 'A picture is worth a thousand words.' But how did the users of Tumblr make good use of this? They reblog! Reblog and reblog photos! It is something I really don't like doing. I mean what is the sense? But if you have your own photo, it is better. Reblogging photos is a mess for me. :p

The other thing about Tumblr is its users exaggerate. They spam links here and there. Especially in Twitter. But its actually not illegal or something bad. It is every ones freedom to do. I just don't like the idea, they already reblogged it in their Tumblr and then again like reblogged it in Twitter. What the hell?

Tumblr an easy way to blog, and reblog. Overall I don't like Tumblr. I just don't know why. :)

Peace to the users of Tumblr. It is just what I feel. And please don't spam!!!

I'm working online

2010-02-26T20:00:00.002+08:00

Recently I was involved to some work via web. Making tarpaulin and other content writing is a talent that I could use to gain money. But the case is different. It was only for some people I knew over the internet, like my classmates living in other countries already and some people I knew over the web. I wanted to work more and at the same time create good relationship with some people over the internet and from different countries.

So I decided to join GetAFreelancer (GAF) again. My first time there was not good, I was scammed. I hated the job, but I somehow feel right now that I want to get back. So here I am again, joining GAF for the second time or rather I say I am back to GAF.

Below are some of the things I prefer to work:
-Content Writing/ Creating posts for blogs
-Writing Reviews to Movies, Books.
-Article rewriting
-Tarpaulin Making
-Photo Editing and some more

I am flexible to the time. I make priorities depending on the closest deadline. I do not accept projects that I can not assure I could finish it on time. Therefore, it means that I only work for those I could actually finish.

If you want me to work into something just email me here.
Or visit my profile at GetAFreelancer.com

Kalog YawYaw

2010-02-21T08:26:00.004+08:00

Naabot nanaman ako sa point na walang mgawa nung biyernes. May hinihintay kasi ako dun sa may stairs. Medyo napaaga ako sa paghihintay kasi maaga natapos ang aming klase sa Networking. Kaya ayun, sa kahihintay ko, eto nanaman napunta sa icpan ko.

Wag nyo masamain kasi naman. May mga taong daan ng daan sa gilid ko. Mga lalaki walang magawa sa buhay. May mga nursing pa na ang ingay talaga. Medyo malakas ang pandinig ko. Grabeh sila 'yawyaw' (mention) nga mga ganito na salita. Isinulat ko mga sinasabi nila sa notepad. Nag photoshop nalang ako. Dun nilagay ko ng art ang mga sinasabi nila. Kaya kayo wag nalang pumalag. yawyaw? buot diay ka?! biro lang.. hehe

Walang Trip! Nag photoshop drawing nalang

2010-02-19T07:02:00.002+08:00

Eto gnawa ko ngaun dahil bored ako. First time ko `toh gawin sa photoshop. Putek. mouse lang gamit ko.. Wala talga ako trip ngaun. hahaha.
Kagaguhan ko talaga ngaun ang mag drawing. Kahit kelan di ako naging magaling mag drawing! hahaha. Ewan ko nalang sa kamay ko. Kahit grabeh praktis ko nuon. haha. Sadyang may mga magaling lang talga mag drawing. Kahit pinraktis nyo pa. Magaling talga kayo mag drawing. HAhahaha.. May mga kagaya ko lang talga na hindi magaling. HAHAHA :p

A thesis to work on to

2009-12-02T10:38:00.002+08:00

We finally have a Thesis to work on to.
Title: "A Recycling Bin for Mobile Phone, especially Nokia Phones running Symbian Operating System."

pro blogging?

2009-11-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

Well, I wanted to be one. But I just can't write. Hahaha..
And I just can't have the time.
So Busy at school life.

We're having a family picture today

2009-11-26T17:37:00.001+08:00

As what the title says.. We're going to have our family picture for the year 2009. Before we leave the year, we always have something to keep and remember for every year, that is the family picture.

so Ciao!

we're back

2009-11-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

We're back together again.
Whew! I hope it won't happen again.

Tears are falling

2009-11-18T22:24:00.001+08:00

Indeed. I never thought of it. This happens.

Too good

2009-11-17T21:14:00.001+08:00

I found it. I found the book that will help me with learning some stuff. It could be not.. But I feel it is. I will believe. :)

Visual Basic 2008

2009-11-15T16:15:00.001+08:00

Okay, first thing's first. I have a lot to learn especially Visual Basic 2008. This semester is going to be a lot different from the past years of my life at college. I will do my best this time. And try to give it all up.

When Dragons and Horses Meet Update1

2009-11-07T09:02:00.003+08:00

As you know, I am making a story, which hopefully can be considered a novel. I have just finished the introductory part. I had trouble remembering the things that happened back then when I try to write it. But hopefully, as I go through the journey I would easily remember all the things that happened.

I will mention updates about this as soon as I have finished one chapter. :)

Thank you for reading the update.

November Movie Marathon

2009-11-05T21:39:00.002+08:00

Haven't you noticed that this month is like full of good movies to watch? Well, if you ask the same question to me. I would really say. YES!

There are a lot movies I would love to watch, including: New Moon, which is the next in the Twilight Saga of Stephenie Meyer. Why would I not watch it? No, I say I'm gonna watch it. It's not bad to try and finish the SAGA.

Ninja Assassin, another movie title that struck me, is going to be in Cinemas this November 20 I think. I would definitely watch this. :)

Well, I won't mention much about this stuffs. It's up for you to take note of it.:)

BTW, there is also a good movie to watch. A combination of two funny mothers, namely Aling Dionisia (Mother of Manny Pacquiao) and Ai Ai Delas Alas (Comedy Queen). If I'm not mistaken, the title was "Ang Tanging Pamilya." :) Would love to watch it too. I saw the sneak peak :) Really Funny.

What was yesterday?

2009-11-05T06:08:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a rock. I love it.
We had some social drinking @Kim's Crib which turned my classmate almost drunk. (I guess he was).
Some of my friends met Feb =) <3
And we had a party last night, celebrating Quicel's 19th Birthday. Wohoo..
I met Judelyn a new friend of mine, and sooner will be part of the berkz.

So yesterday was another tiring day - and it was rockin'

at last...

2009-11-03T07:01:00.002+08:00

I was numb, not anymore.
I love you, yes I do.
I found you, at last.
You were there in my mind, yes you were.
You love me, I felt it.
You never failed, I am happy for that.
I don't want to lose you, I really don't.
I won't make you cry, I will try.
I will make you happy, yes I will.
You did it, no we did it.
You won't regret, love me all you can.
You will never fail, 'cause I won't fail.

You are my girlfriend. :) <3

Omegle is fun

2009-10-27T17:19:00.002+08:00

Omegle, a new website I found. haha. Seems to be fun. With it's motto "Talk to strangers!" and it's real! You're not talking to bots. But really, strangers from all over the world. Haha.

I seem to be having fun with this website wherein you can talk to strangers from all over the world. You can even play with your personality if you want. But, I don't play with my personality. :D Hahaha.. I'm looking for foreign friends again. Booo. XD

Goodluck to me guys! haha

What for me is being numb?

2009-09-27T19:58:00.002+08:00

First of all, when you say numb, it's not totally numb. Like, feelings are out, conscience is taken out and even mercy. Life will never be like that. It's way too impossible. Being numb or insensitive is actually not just a habit or act of a human but it is also through choice. Like me.

Why I choose to be numb?
Being numb, is like a sensation for me. When I encounter problems, I can easily manage to survive and solve it. I love the way it helps me. It took out my fears in life despite the sacrifice to reject someone that loves me. Some people may hate me for being like this, but it's just another numbness to handle that situation.

Being numb needs to have many sacrifices. Pride, attitude, love, and etc. If you have those, you can't be numb. When pride rises up during a defeat some people tend to be hurt and fight for it. I don't do that. I accept the loss and be just a scum, a loser. I have experiences being looked down. I don't care. If love arrives, and you know who that people is, I will do everything for us just to be friends for the moment. I will ignore the feeling, even if it really hurts, anyways, numbness will handle that.

Is it painful?
No it's not. Pain is nothing when you are numb. Back there, I mentioned that "ignoring love is really painful", it's actually a no no. If you think about it, then it is really painful, but if not, you won't feel anything. I've been into many loses in the battle of love before, each lost, I reflect, and see those things that hurt me and I will try to suppress everything. I closed many good memories. When I'm about to think about those memories, I try to think about something else to prevent remembering them. It's not painful.

Am I happy?
Yes, I am! I may not look like I'm happy, but I am. I really enjoy this kind of life.

Am I totally numb?
No, sometimes I hate it and get mad to myself when I lost in a battle I almost win. It applies to everything. Like a chess game I had. When someone have sinned against me, it's nothing for me. I forgive them easily, even how bad they did to me. I appreciate things, people's efforts to help me. I love those who accepts me for what I am, because I feel they understand me, even if it's actually not true.

I am stupid.
Yes. I am. Because being numb is not good. I might destroy someone, and something. I know it's not God wanted to be. I half disobeyed God's Greatest commandments. :D

Thank you guys for reading. Leave me some comments. Have you experienced being numb?

Who in the world are you?

2009-09-25T22:21:00.003+08:00

free writing :p

You came out from nowhere.
I can't imagine how we met.
It's like you suddenly fall from heaven and met me. You created another world for me. But I don't to enter it yet. I want to be alone, I want to come back. I want to enjoy this life. But there is something telling me deep inside, something I can't understand.

Who in the world are you?

You keep running inside my head.
You can't show me your face.
You can't be pictured out in my head.
I can't keep up with the time's race.

Love is what I don't want to choose this time.

There you go. I don't want to come. But I realized I was there.
I run. I tried to be numb. And I was.
But, I lost when we met.
Took away all my new principles.

I won't fall, I won't.

Please forgive me for being numb.
That's the best way I found to change my life.

Wohoo... Who really in the world are you? I just read that question from a wall. In the CR of my friends auntie. (I went to a birthday celebration) I just want to make something out of it. But I can't hahaha..

I just write down all the phrases I can come up with inside my mind. Hahaha. I'm not thinking when I write this down. I don't care of those wrong grammars, or spellings. hahaha. :D I just loved that.

Out of time

2009-09-23T20:49:00.005+08:00

Hello guys, seems like I will be behind schedule from finishing this design I'm doing right now. Next week will be a lot of pressures. It's our SAD Defense, and I'm also out of time in making the requirements needed for the defense.

Hope we'll be doing fine starting this time. Take out those temptations or rather laziness in doing our assigned jobs in the group.

By this time, it's going to be just compiling, and editing our pre-made documents. Hope we will find out those lacking in our documents and those lacking in our scope, which is the most important part of our defense next week.

Most of us in the class have a lot of things to redo. Almost all of the documents we'll be redoing maybe. Our adviser gave us a lot of headache. Redo this, redo that. This is wrong, that is also wrong. Come on, we're behind the schedule. Help us!

Man, this should not be happening. Doomed again? Hope we'll escape this. Our panels, include the most feared panelist. OMG! Say good luck for us. We badly need it.

I will really celebrate if we pass! And, you can come, people who commented here. Haha. Just kidding. Why not try? You know, I might change my mind. Still smiling.

Going Web2.0

2009-09-21T13:06:00.002+08:00

Redesign again. That's another thing I love about having a blog. I like designing things. Now I'm going 2.0. I'm totally out now of those basic stuffs. I'm going to advance now.

Without those basic stuffs I learned and those advises and negative comments I received in some of my works, I might not have become at least good at this.

Having my laptop now, I can finish redesigning at least a week despite the busy schedules I have. I would spend at least 3 hours a day redesigning. Looking for much better things. I just started this out. So say, I would finish this next Tuesday maybe. I would ask you who read this to comment please. I need comments and suggestions for the design. :D I'll appreciate that much.

Funny thing

2009-09-18T19:45:00.002+08:00

It's somehow fun for me to see people bump their heads when they go inside the jeeps when I am going home. I see them bump then bump, bump and bump in the a metal that supports the roofing. Haha.

They look awesome. When they found their sit, its like nothing for them. If I'm the one who's going to be bumped like that, I'll definitely have a headache.

Well, actually I had a headache right now. I wake up too early this morning and the room is so cold that I can't sleep back again. I did our new SAD Proposed System so that I would have a lot of free time today.

I am happy that I received our allowance. We all get 500 Pesos. It's higher than we expected which is 450 Pesos. Haha. I already spend 300 of it to pay my mother from the money I borrowed during the DACS Sportsfest. I promised her. Hehe.

Thank God, we can now get our Team Jackets. It's very late but then its okay. We can still use it during PRISAA next year.

The Lost Symbol

2009-09-18T10:00:00.002+08:00

Early this morning, I got a copy of Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol from my old friend. Thank God, it's on pdf. If it was a book, there's no way I could borrow it. Since it's pdf, it can be easily distributed. :D

The book should be another sequel from the books Angels & Demons and The Da Vinci Code, all by Mr. Dan Brown. The book is also lead by Robert Langdon.

Click here to download. Don't forget to say thank you. :D

What do you think of this book? The story? Care to share it with me?

Yesterday was a fair day

2009-09-16T06:40:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a fair day for me. In the evening, I was fortunate but during the day I was in pain. Sick of something I don’t know. But I recovered from it sooner than I thought. I didn’t go to school, because of that pain. It was just headache at first, and then minutes later it suddenly moved to another part of my body-the stomach.

I devoured every food that I thought that could replenish this lacking power in my body to avoid the pain. This isn’t the first time this kind of thing happened to me. The first time was really the painful one. I had fever that time. I shiver every moment. It is a kind of pain that is internal. It’s like attacking your whole body at once without knowing where the pain really is, just like a poison running into your nerves. The pain was mild, it’s killing you softly, and even remembering it feels like it will trigger it to happen again. But I survived it, I was saved.

Fortune—the thing I never expected to happen to me yesterday evening.

Rushing things is already part of my daily life. It becomes one of my habits. Because of that, things might not go lucky for me, but let’s exempt things that happened yesterday. I rushed to go to school. It was around 5:30pm when I just started to move out from home. I really thought I would be late, but I never gave up and still went to go to school. When I arrived at school, I saw the wall clock. It’s already 6:05pm. I am late. But either way, I’d still like to enter the class even if I’m late. I forgot my pen, good grace I found my classmate during high school. I borrowed her pen, and for that she deserves a credit for the lucky things that happened yesterday evening. I entered the classroom; I thought they were already taking the quiz for the day. But no, what I saw was them taking the evaluation test for our Professor. The class hasn’t started yet and I’m still not late for the real thing.

I didn’t expect to rain.

Back inside our classroom I asked my seatmate if who’s cap was that under our another classmate's seat. He said it was left by someone from the other classes. I took it. I planned to give it to someone when I arrive home—mother took it actually. We were riding home together with my classmate when it started to rain. I just realized I could use the cap to cover my head against the rain. There, I was saved from getting fever. Lucky!

I just realized at home that was those things that happened on purpose? – Especially the cap that saved me from getting fever. Someone just saved me from being late. I think it was my God. What do you think?

Blogging Back

2009-09-13T21:05:00.002+08:00

Life has never been easy these past weeks. There were full of cramming, sleepless nights, and of course the continuous problematic days that I have. One problem that really slowed down my to-do things was the probable death of my desktop computer.

Problem #1: Death of My Computer
The death of My Computer really had a big impact in my work. I belong to a group of people that can't work well in the cafes, in school laboratories or in some crowded areas. It has been my attitude to work alone. I like solemn places, quiet and good atmosphere and this is my home.

The Cause:
I diagnosed the computer and found out that the HardDisk is dying. So I stopped trying to reinstall the operating system again to prevent data loss on my drive D:\ side. I also found out that the IDE Cable is not functioning well. So that's why I can't really tell that the HardDisk is already dead.

The Solution:
For weeks, I've been in the internet cafe during night to work on my school requirements and spend a little bit surfing the internet for entertainment. Yesterday, I just received my laptop. It saved me from spending the night in the cafe yesterday and today to work on my school stuff.

Now let's see how to solve this death of my computer. First, I took measures. Since I'm not sure if the HDD is really the problem, I would just buy the IDE Cable first. If I found out that the HDD is also dead, I will definitely buy it next. Why would I do that? So that I could save money. Maybe it's not the HDD that's dead, only the IDE Cable. I would buy first the cheaper one before the expensive one. I only thought of this solution after I received my laptop. I really wondered why.

Problem #2: S.A.D. and I.R.M.
As a blogger, it is expected that he/she is good in documenting things and stuff. But no, I'm different, and it's actually not right. My group somehow expect for me to work more on the documentary stuff. God help. A big problem. I'm not that kind of person. We should be working together, indeed we are. But, I'm doing most of the stuff. Even if I distribute the job to my group mates, they won't stop asking me about this and that. OMG

About S.A.D.
There are again a lot of things to do with this sh!t. I'm actually hating it now. I want to graduate now or no longer go to school because of this stuff. This made my mind really crazy. I can't really think what to do now. The final defense is going to be on September 28, that's next week! Lord God. Hope we really can work things well now. Hope we could finish the Milestone 7 that we're doing right now. Hope there won't be a take 2 on this subject.

About I.R.M.
Our teacher or professor here doesn't seem like a threat to my grades. This professor won't fail a student if the student performed well, and had a good attendance. I'm saved here. But the problem here is, could we work it out well during the final reporting this Thursday? I mean, what would be our next updates aside from generating a print function or pdf generator. Could I work out for the GUI that I'm planning to do? I guess not. This is all gonna be just dreams. But surely we will pass this subject. :D

Problem #3: Final Defense for S.A.D. Proposed system will be next week. Sept. 28, 2009.
This is totally a problem. What will we defend? Our proposed system isn't perfect yet.

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This is totally a mess. :( But I am really to have my laptop. It saved me.

DACS Finally Over

2009-09-01T13:54:00.004+08:00

It was last Saturday, August 28 as the DACS Sporstfest officially announced it's start. Held at University of Immaculate Concepcion in Bonifacio. We were all excited in our event- Chess. This past few days, we have been preparing to try and grab the title of being the Champion. Despite our busy schedules and without having a coach, the team really tried to practice a lot.

This just means we want to win. I am happy to see our team having this will. In every game, you should really aim to win.

Unfortunately, we were unable to grab the Championship title. We were the 2nd runner-up, and we're happy about that. Actually, most of us in Men Category we're amazed how come we were the 2nd runner up. They thought, we won't have a place. But no. It was our efforts that made us the 2nd runner up.

During the individual awards, I was the 1st runner-up in my board no. I am happy I placed. Hehe.

Now, the team is looking forward for future events like the Unigames and PRISCAA. Hope this time we'll be able to be the Champion. We will practice! :D

Trouble

2009-08-28T20:23:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is the start of our DACS sportsfest 2009 and I recently loose to all the games I've played during practices. This is really trouble. I don't know why. I can't understand. Another thing that keeps bothering me is the external hdd I(though not really I) damaged. It's from my classmate and friend. I can't stop thinking about it. Where will I get the money to replace it? Help? Donate please :D just $35 dollars. Haha! I badly need it. T_T

I can't stop thinking about these things now. I thought I won't have problems after this week! But damn, it. It was because of this computer I had! If it just didn't died. I should have not borrow that external drive.

I could have think well. Concentrate well. I really want to win. But if this keeps bothering me. I will really loose. T_T

Please share some of your blessings. I need prayers. God Help! Friends Help!

My AdSense Last Hope

2009-08-21T20:48:00.002+08:00

Haha.. Well you heard it guys. I will share to you my AdSense last hope- Western Union Quick Cash! I'm glad about AdSense. They are really helping me. Now, I'm pretty sure that my PIN requirement is overriden and that I'm no longer required to have a PIN. So I guess it won't bother me now.

What about Western Union Quick Cash Payment?
-It's my hope! ;)

Requirements: Simple! Government Issued IDs. Haha. I Guess I'm gonna have to register for a Government Issued ID. :D Well why? But I'm gonna try something. I will visit some Western Union Office and ask if I could use my School ID. hahaha.. I'm not hoping for that much though. But I'm gonna ask my father to let me have some government issued ID :D yeah!

Now I can receive my AdSense Payment and Start showing some aDS here again! I'm really happy.

Hopefully, this happiness I have now for my Blog will last :D And that I won't have anymore problems :D

Thank God. Thank you AdSense!

True Story - a story of my friend.

2009-08-19T18:55:00.009+08:00

I was asked to write her story. Her lovestory. It was just a simple favor. And I ended up telling her "Let me do it, let me try to narrate your story." I never actually mean it that way. But, to end the conversation. I will make the work for her.

I can't make a title for this story so if you have some ideas. Just let me know. :D The story goes like this.

A girl who never wanted something like this:
Unconditional love. I guess that's what I have.

Perhaps, the greatest love story of a teenage girl would happen in her College life. It's true. Though I never wanted to tell you that I have a great love story in my college life. In fact, it was the opposite side that happened.

We were at the Gaisano Mall. I was having fun with my HS friends particularly Jany, Cris and BamBam. We sat on the chairs up in the SonicBoom. We were staring at people until I suddenly saw my old friend and neighborhood. He was together with some guys. He came to us, say hello and introduced his friends, which I still remember, Marc, and Daniel. He also introduced us to them. Bambam and I were the one's being introduced because Jany and Cris are their classmates. Haha.

They go by. I was curious about this guy with the white hair. I guess it was a birth mark. His name was Daniel. Going on, went I went home. I noticed that my phone had a lot of messages. I wonder who was it. Thought it was a group message or some quotations from Karlo- my old friend and neighborhood that introduced us earlier to some new guys. As I opened it, It said "uuy, Del, Daniel daw.." What the heck was that?? Daniel? that white-spotted-hair guy?. Darn. Now I'm being teased.

I replied to Karlo telling him "what about Daniel?". He didn't replied. I didn't bother texting him again.

Morning came and it was kinda cold. The day is rainy.

I had a habit to look at my phone's clock instead of the wall clock that I had. It's a lot more accurate to our school time than that in the wall clock. When I look at my phone. I had 1 message. I opened it. The number was not in my phonebook. The message says "goodnight". I wonder who was it from. I replied asking who was it. Then I got the reply. It was Daniel. I had a silly conversation with him. And, I can't deny that I enjoyed talking with him.

Days passed by, we continued to talk with each other. We have also been able to watch a movie together, went together in they're Baranggay hall for some of his SK work before I went home, and him to his home. I had fun. I can't deny that I fell in love with him right from the very moment we had our first conversation.

He was so cool. He was the first guy whom I dated with. He went to our house chatted. He called me on our landline. That was unusual for me. He was the first one who did that to me.

I was waiting for him to court me. But it never happened.

Everything changed. I noticed that those things he was doing to me never happened again. He's not contacting me. Not even a goodnight or goodmorning message.

I was wondering why. I asked my friend Karlo what happened to Daniel. And he gave me a bad news. He said Daniel now have a girlfriend.

.....

I went crying. As if the world was ending for me. I cried and cried keep asking myself. Why would he do that to me? I thought it was all going fine. I felt mad for him.

The other day, Karlo texted me and said sorry in behalf of his friend Daniel. Karlo explained to me what happened. I understand now. I don't want to cry again. I'm glad I knew what the reason was. And then after that, Daniel called me and said sorry. I accepted his sorry. I guess, things just don't be like the way we wanted it to be.

Until now, I still feel something for him. But, I am trying to deny it and that's gonna be it.

-end-

Horoscopes

2009-08-17T21:26:00.003+08:00

As a Catholic, I really don't believe in Horoscopes. But recently, the updates from my Twittascope is becoming real. They're descriptions of my life day by day is kinda amazing for as it really tells what exactly happened to me during the day.

It's weird. Today I received this update:

You are tired of supposedly responsible people misleading you with sleight of hand and smooth promises. You are not in the mood to be hoodwinked today and if you think that someone is altering the margins of reality, you can get quite serious. You won't be much fun to deal with if you discover that you've been deceived in any way. Still, it's wise to postpone a major discussion for a few days or you might create more problems than you solve.

This really happened especially this phrase 'You are tired of supposedly responsible people misleading you with sleight of hand and smooth promises'

I am really tired today, and it really makes me tired knowing that the people that promised me today broke the promise.

I also received this twittascope update yesterday:
You have important things to do today, whether your current role is played out in the community, at church or within your family. Unfortunately, you could be busier than you prefer, but it's not likely that you will be able to withdraw prior to meeting your obligations. Others are expecting a lot from you now, and it's important that you stand up and deliver.

Yes, I really had important things to do yesterday. I didn't upset my mother again because I did the laundry despite her. I actually managed to lessen her burden for the next batch of laundry.

I'm happy knowing all of this, but I'm still a catholic. So rather believe actually in them, I made it as a guide of what will I do and I also included prayers so that things and time won't be rough to me, and that God will accompany me in the journeys my life everyday.

Chess, DACS, Exams, Assignments

2009-08-16T22:56:00.004+08:00

It's wonderful to know how gifted some people are in playing chess. They are great wizards for me. Knowing that they are the ones who made investigations and created those openings and variations. They're very lucky. They all have great mind.

I wonder how they acquired their skills. We all knew that talents are also made but in the case of chess, how? Frustration, covers me. I hate how I play chess. I think that, I'm just not gifted to it, or my brain just suck?

The Davao Association of Colleges and Schools Competitions is next week. We or I guess, I am just the one who haven't prepared for it. If I'm going to play. Hopefully I will win. By any means, like the enemy being default or whatever, just me and my team winning.

We only have 5 days more to practice and we are all busy. The Palarong Atenista 2009 just ended and now, we also need to prepare for the Midterm exams next week. How can I practice? There are a lot of hindrances. I want to crush it all out so that I can focus for our practice.

The DACS Sportsfest is also during our Midterm Examinations. I guess the team can't have the exam next week. Hopefully we will be excused by our teachers so that they won't add another problem for us.

God is watching us. Ateneo de Davao haven't tried being 1st runner-up or champion in Chess ever since. Hopefully this year, we'll be the Champion.

GO ATENEO! GO TEAM

BooOoOo! Fiesta over!

2009-08-15T23:32:00.004+08:00

After 4 days away from the computer, I feel new. It has been our fiesta intramural this past 4 days and I was really busy. :D I been officiating the chess tournament, and great, I have free tickets for cheerdance night and also the sayawten night. But the sayawten night ticket-- Oh! I teared it apart. Why? Because I can't sit with my friends using a complimentary ticket. hahaha.. But I was stupid. I could have just cut the upper part. ;) They can't actually know if I were using a complimentary ticket. haha. I realized that later.. really stupid.. lol..

Being an arbiter is hard. It was supposed to be round-robin, not double elimination. But we can't change it! It was the rule. I hate it. They made it hard for us. Damn >.< Chess during tournaments is Round-Robin.. What the heck is double elimination? somebody explain it to me?-- ok! but, we still finished it--no problem :D

BoooOO! I hate the part knowing that there are ties for the position--CHampion!? They should break the tie. .. Everyone shouted booooOO! And.. EA should've championed the cheerdance... ;) They are great...

NSM booth was fun.. way to easy. :D hahAhahaHA.. I think I made that girl angry :D The girl that manages their booth :D She was beautiful ;) (and I hit her accidentally in her belly, oops.. Sorry for that.) Hahaha.. hmmmm.. I win every time I play in their booth game:D I have 3 ballpens with LED light ;) I like it. :D Useful handy tool :D I am the one who dissolve their prizes :D lol.. I wanted to play for the last time. But that beautiful girl canceled the booth immediately after my 6th win :D I got 20 pesos again for downing the 3 bottles filled with water :D haha.. I have lucky shots! many of them :D hahaha.. I threw the ball once, and I hit all the 3 bottles.. hahaha.. Can you think how I did it? I was just awesome :D hahaha... peace :D The next time I see her.. :D I will say sorry again to that girl :D hahaha.

Freaking awesome. Faculty won the men category in chess.. and SSE won the women category.. I collected some cellphone numbers of some potential women chess players for tryouts for our Board number 5 in DACS.. hahaha.. and I actually have an evil side.. :D I want to be close to those girls :D especially the BM girl and the College of Nursing girl :D *winks* ;) .hahahaha..

Hmmmm.. I smell pressure.. haha.. THE PRESSURE IS ON.. lol.. Back to school life again.. :D hehe.. But but.. I need to prepare for the incoming DACS tournament :D Hopefully we'll have a coach.. and .. hopefully we will win.. :D

SOar high Ateneo.. :D I like it, I love it.. ! .. wohoo... Me --> awesome :D hahaha.

4 days

2009-08-09T12:26:00.002+08:00

4 days ago, I was wondering if will continue blogging. I hate to admit it. I wanted a blog to share my ideas and life. But, I also wanted to have something from it. I want to earn.

I am actually referring to my adsense pin. I still haven't received it. I came up with an idea that I will use my brothers name to register a new adsense account. I don't know if this time it will work.

Hopefully, I will now gain something from this stuff. My parents was hoping for that too. They are the ones who told me to blog. :D

I don't know why. I guess I will try some other engines and other ways to get money from the internet aside from google Adsense.

I had nuffnang, but I see no progress at all.

I will study more about this advertisements of how they work. I will also try payperpost which I haven't tried ever since :D

That's it for now, that's it for "at last after four days." I'm loosing here :D But I am still happy. :D Lol

It was today, Failure

2009-08-05T20:46:00.004+08:00

Today was really a big failure. I had lots of plans today, but mah gad.. my mom changed it all in a sudden. She asked me to do the laundry. I hate it.

There were so many clothes in the laundry. Including my fathers clothes from Monday-Tuesday this week. She also included all my brother's and sister's school uniforms and home attires. Damn. That was really a lot.

Although doing the laundry ended up earlier than I expected, it was still a failure. I wanted to hang out with my HS friends today. We had a actually a simple reunion with some of my best friends during high school.

We wanted to watch a movie entitled "The Proposal". But the plan never happened because I am not coming. (sorry guys). I really heard a lot from this movie. It makes me really wanna watch it. Maybe next time.

The afternoon was really boring.I spend up the whole afternoon at home doing nothing. I just experimented on some stuff in the computer. For example, in my GArena account, I tried to map hack during a game. But they detected me and there, my 1st account was banned. I tried it again using my second account. Using the hacked map hack, which I hacked. But I accidentally clicked on the original one and executed it. Again, GArena detected me. Got banned again.

I created a new account. And tried to level it up for a few hours. I won the games. But never enjoyed. :( Don't know why.

I also experimented some utilities that I downloaded from the internet. I actually destroyed one of my projects folders. Erased all the source codes that I coded, and also the documentation of that project. I really want to say "Sh*t to dat. Oops." Another failure. My project was a failure because I have deleted it! :(

Night came and still have nothing to do, not until I realized that I have some homework to do. Mah Gad! All from AIS. That d*mn AIS subject that we had. I actually suck in that subject. :(

Now I'm sleepy. Makes me feel tired doing the assignment. I guess I'll just do it when I wake up tomorrow. Hopefully! I will wake up early tomorrow.

Now I want to enter my cold room and sleep.. So this goes "GoodnighT".

Escaped Hell

2009-08-03T21:15:00.002+08:00

Yes! We escaped hell today. Hahaha. Our long quiz for our SAD was moved tomorrow :D Thank God. hahaha.. Oh yeah.. but here I am spending the whole night with the computer again.

Haven't browsed my notes yet. I have photocopied my classmates book so that I have something to study tonight. I want to study. I want to. I don't know why my hands are still here, pressing the keyboard and mouse.

I feel tired, I guess I can't study tonight. Maybe later, when I wake up. :D Hopefully I will wake up early, so that I could study :D

Hope the questions will be easy and the answers will be so obvious. Hopefully. :D

I will pray to bro.

August 1st Post

2009-08-02T22:04:00.003+08:00

I'm really pissed. Why does my adsense pin still not here? I'm not receiving the pin. I've waited for 2-3 weeks already. I'm not pissed to AdSense though. I don't know what keeps delaying my mail. Is it because of our postal service here?

I have friends who already receive theirs. I'm so jealous. I'm gonna wait!

I'm not gonna give up on this.

Another thing that keeps me pissed is my Cellphone. Yeah. I already received it for 9 months of waiting. But, I think the network dead shit. It's reception is very low. I hate it!

Pressures Times 2

2009-07-27T20:35:00.006+08:00

So SAD. yeah! Systems Analysis and Design as SAD stands for. It really is a sad subject. It gives you a lot of pressures. We went to the company that we selected to get the MOA(memorandum of agreement) that the contact person and the owner should understand and sign, but we failed to get it. They haven't signed it and maybe didn't even read it. Hopefully, soon we will have a very cooperative company and that will never back-out from us.

IRM - I thought it is going to be submitted next week, but no! Its deadline is this coming Thursday. I only got 3 days left to recreate the GUI, i crashed the GUI I designed for 3 weeks. That's real shit that happened to me. yeah!! shit happens.

Hopefully we will all survive this situation until next semester. Next Semester will be a lot more bloody than this time.

I need to set aside unnecessary activities so that I can do the important once and finish it earlier. I guess it will help me lessen the torn that still needs to be cut down.

I haven't even finished this current template yet! OMG. It really looks nasty and messy. Hopefully, I will finish this before next month.

God help me!

Tweaking the design again and Photography

2009-07-26T22:02:00.004+08:00

It's been a while since I last updated the template of my blog. I usually do this every after a month or 2 months. Now, I did it again. It's not that good yet. I ran out of time redesigning my blog today. Actually, sh*t happens - I accidentally restarted my computer and lost all the design I've been working in Photoshop.

Tomorrow is Monday, and I really don't have the time to continue or create another design. I will try to find time tomorrow, maybe I will do it overnight. Hopefully my parents will allow me too. But I guess they wouldn't. I am slowly recovering from sick, so I should sleep well.

In the meantime. I tried to create another blog using WP. I really don't like it. I can't create my own design. I hate it.

Today, I just liked photography. I don't know why. I will post some of the shots I've taken today tomorrow. I forgot where I put the cam. I use Canon PowerShot. =) The camera that have survived from us =)

I'm looking for an Installer for IE8 =) If you have one, just email me the link please :D j1nd3mon@gmail.com

All it takes is a Little Motivation

2009-07-25T21:37:00.003+08:00

I just need to share this to you guys. This helped me. It's an inspiration. I've read from a book; "Stories for the Heart".

All it takes is a Little Motivation
Zig Ziglar
From Over the Top

I love the story the late Dr. Ken McFarland delighted in telling.
It seems a gentleman worked on the 4:00pm to midnight shift, and he always walk home after work. One night the moon is shining so bright he decided to take a shortcut through the cemetery, which would save him roughly a mile walk. There were no incidents involved, so he repeated the process on a regular basis, always following the same path.One night as he was walking his route through the cemetery, he did not realize that during the day a grave have been dug in the very center of his path. He stepped right into the grave and immediately started desperately trying to get out. His best efforts failed him, and after a few minutes, he decided to relax and wait until morning when someone would help him out.

He sat down in a corner and was half asleep when a drunk stumbled into the grave. His arrival roused the shift worker since the drunk was desperately trying to climb out, clawing frantically at the sides. Our hero reached out his hand, touched the drunk on the leg and said, "Friend, you can't get out of here..." -but he did! Now that's motivation.

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I know it's quite confusing which one was motivation there. But you'll eventually know it. =)

About my AdSense

2009-07-24T11:50:00.003+08:00

As you can see, there are now ads from Google's AdSense. I am so happy that they extended the displaying of related ads to my blog for 2 months. But still my problem wasn't solved yet. The mail I've been expecting from Google, which contains my pin, isn't here yet.

I've been waiting for many weeks now. At first, I had a mistake in my Payee Address Information, so maybe it's the reason why the mail isn't here yet. I've been reallypatient here, since Google AdSense support helped me about my problem. They said, I will have an extension for displaying related ads to my site, they send me another pin and recommended to wait for another 2-3 weeks before the mail will arrive.

Hopefully, this time. I will receive the mail so that I can have my first payment from AdSense. :D wohoo! =)

What if our lifespan is just 24 hours?

2009-07-21T20:53:00.003+08:00

Can you imagine what life would you have for only 24 hours? My God! I can't think of anything. For me, life would be meaningless if you only just have 24 hours to live.

I can't imagine what my classmate was thinking when he asked this to me. It's actually normal to him, thinking weird stuff and doing weird stuff, and he's really weird.

When he asked me about this, I really went into deep thinking for a nick of time. whaaat? I thought. I laughed. But it made me think. What kind of life we would have if we only just live for 24 hours?

Fast reproduction? Lol. Faster growing? lol. Life will be moving fast? How useless. It's still gonna be 24 hours! That's not really enough to live. But what if? What would you do?

Hmmmm..

If you ask me, I would really just take a breast feed for one day and then die. -this was a really good suggestion from my classmate who asked me about this stuff.

I know it's not a good way, and a better way. But, would there be any better way than that? Hahaha.. Damn. My head aches thinking of this stuff.

I guess, it will be better if my classmate would have asked me, what would I do if you only have 24 hours to live anymore. ~but I'll take a long time to answer that question~

:D What do you think? What if our lifespan is just 24 hours?

Programming in way back time.

2009-07-20T18:26:00.003+08:00

I was browsing for my files recently and I found out two of the programs I made using C Language.

I remembered the time when I first used this. I wrote the name of the person I like or should I rather say the person I love and then next is my name. When I press the return key, the results shows 100% of love. See the image below.

Want to try it? Click here to download LOVEcounter.exe. It's not a virus! Of course.

I also found out another program I made back when I was still in first year. It functions basically the same with LOVEcounter but it's different. It's actually a FLAMES counter, which stands F = Friends, L = Love, A = Acceptance, M = Marriage, E = Enemies, S = Sweet.

If you want to try it also just click here.

What do you think about those programs I made guys? I know it's a very noob program that I made, but for me it's a lot.

I also have a lot of other programs here, but it has a lot of bugs :D I don't want to use it, and share it. I don't know what happened. When I finished those programs, it's really working well, until it shows unnecessary results :D It's a bug!

=)

Time moving slow?

2009-07-18T20:54:00.003+08:00

I feel that time is moving so slow than the way it normally does. I always wait for something, but it takes so long before it arrives. I always had to sleep so that I won't notice the time, but it's still the same. When I woke up, I feel that I've been asleep for so long and when I watch the clock, I saw I was only asleep for just a matter of minutes.

This maybe a paranormal thing that is happening to me. Maybe it has something to do with me. My attitudes, my habit or etc.

I think it's giving me the chance to finish off all of the things that I need to do. Like answering our bring home exams, exercises, comply school requirements, and etc. It has really something to do with this.

Until now, I don't know what to do. I don't want to answer the exams yet, comply the requirements, and even study, eew. I had a bad habit really.

I like to finish things during rush hours. But look at me now. I haven't finished even one yet. And all of these requirements will be submitted on Monday! Oh! God.

I don't like this. I need to change. Time is moving slow for me. I will abuse it. Because maybe that's what is meant to be for me.

Help?

School

2009-07-16T22:27:00.004+08:00

Exams are quite helpful to us and sometimes not. It's just a matter of measuring how much you learned for the subject. But it's not the real measurement actually. Try not studying? And when you see the results, that's how much you actually learned for that subject.

It's quite common now for me to see some other students falling asleep during classes or during break. Students are studying overnight just to pass the exams on the next day and that's not good for our health.

Teachers must also consider students' capabilities. It's not just because that's part of our responsibility as a student that they need to load us with lot's of things to do. Hey, we're still human. We have limits.

Hope teachers will think about this.

Students will forget how to enjoy their life as a student. If this continues.

Thought-full

2009-07-14T22:08:00.006+08:00

There are so many things I missed today.

We had a very long long test in our AIS subject and I missed it. It was a big loss. But I think, even if I were there, I'm not sure I can answer it anyway.

I was absent because I had another therapy session. Supposed to be, it's gonna be this coming Saturday, but, since we can't go there, we had it scheduled today.

My sister will be going back to Manila again this Saturday, the reason why we can't have the therapy this Saturday. She will start working as a Stewardess in Cebu Pacific Airlines and we will not see her for most of the time. We'll gonna miss her, so we will all come together for her flight.

It was a very thought-full day. I mean, it's full of thoughts. It happens most of the day, but today was somewhat special for me. I don't know why. But it really is.

When we were going home, together with some of my friends. I thought, we made somebody happy when we're doing something funny in the Jeepney. I saw someone smiled for us. I like the feeling. It makes me happy too.

The day ended quite good also. We had a chess match between my Father and I won the two games that we had. He said I'm becoming good. He also said that I'm worthy to become a player in our school.

That would have not been done because of my will to win. I use the skills and tactics that I learned from my practice buddy, the Computer Chess Engine that I have. I am very thankful for that.

Even how tired I was, and how painful my body is, I'm still able to do those things that I mostly do. I'm really becoming good. That's what I think so.

Happy. Shalala.

My body is aching. A lot of things to do.

2009-07-13T21:12:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, we had our Computer Studies Division sportsfest 2009-2010, and it was indeed a success. It was also a fruitful day for me. I had my very first exercise this year, and it was during that day. I played volleyball, which has been the very challenging sport that we had. We all had fun in every game that we had, especially when we fought last year's defending champion. They defeated us, during that game. We won 3rd place, for the volleyball.

I also played basketball, which we thought we could win together with my teammates. We only had 1 game for basketball. We lost that game for 10 points.

After that game, I really feel tired already. I want to lie down on my bed.
My body's so heavy, and my eyelids are so heavy. I'm loosing my energy. We went to buy some cold drinks at the Convenience store to refresh ourselves, but it didn't help.

I went home after eating together with my friends at Mang Inasal in Gaisano Mall of Davao. At home, there was another batch of foods. We had a simple celebration because, my sister just came home from Manila where she had her training for 2 months already, and it was also my grandmother's birthday that day. I ate again. I love the fruits, it really made me energized again.

The next day, I really felt tired again, and my body is aching. I can't move very well. It's like there's something very heavy I'm carrying. I tried to drink some pain relievers but my mother and father won't allow me to drink one. They said, it's said it's bad for our health. They recommended me to just sleep, but no, I can't do that. There are still many things to finish.

I want to sleep now. In fact, I can't submit it tomorrow because I'll traveling early tomorrow for a therapy. I will be absent for the whole day tomorrow.

I will surely miss many lessons tomorrow.

HELPPP!!!!!!

Ikaw pa rin ang hinahanap ko

2009-07-11T21:09:00.004+08:00

You're still the one I've been looking for (Ikaw pa rin ang hinahanap ko). Well, I just heard it from a song. I don't know what the title is, but it really gets into me. It's like, this song is telling me the real feeling I had for her. I can't deny it.

All these days, I've been thinking of this one girl that have been part of my life for a very short time. I can say that because we only had a very short moment in our life together to share different thoughts, to talk to each other without any hesitation, not until the time when things started to change, and I fell in love with her.

I tried to tell her.

I did. I told her I love her. But after that. Things doesn't seem to be the way I wanted to be. She went away. I never found her again. I failed to tell her how much I love her.

It's very different.I never blamed her for this. It was my own decision.

I feel like I'm the one who's lost, but she is. I tried to hate her. Feeling the pain she left me all these years, just to hate her.

I searched for her. I don't know why. I just can't control this feeling, it takes control over me.

....

One night. I was surprised. She contacted me. She tried to talk to me about what happened. She said she was sick during that time. During those weeks, days and years that she's like mad at me. I feel she's lying. Maybe because she just wanted me to forgive her of what she did to me. She's guilty. I can see that. I told her, I forgave her already. But, that wasn't true. I just wanted to make her happy that time.

I found out one day, when I woke up from a beautiful dream with her, I still love her. Even more deeper.

As days pass by, it's getting more deeper and deeper. I want to shout everything, but I can't without her listening.

Right now, I want to tell her everything. I want to run to her and hug her tight. I want to kiss her with all my heart.

I LOVE YOU, YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING.

-Stories from my heart...

You're the 1, Goldilocks

2009-07-10T06:54:00.010+08:00

I was just 8 years old back then, when I had my first Goldilocks experience. My father brought some from Manila. At that time, there was no Goldilocks branch here in our City. So, whenever my father go to Manila, which is a rare opportunity for him as an ordinary employee, he always bring us some delicacies from Goldilocks.

It has also been a rare experience for us to eat some Goldilocks products. The very first time my father brought us from Goldilocks was a bunch of Polvoron. It has been our all time favorite. It's sweetness is enough to satisfy us, but made us crave for more.

My father never went back to Manila again when I turned 10. He lost his job, because the company had bankrupted. Too bad. I really felt sad about it. I thought I'll never experience those Goldilocks moments that we had. But, when I found out from my friend that there was a new branch established in a Plaza in our City, I immediately told my mother about it. I was so so happy, including my mother. We immediately went there, and found the branch ourselves.

Goldilocks has lots of products. We buy some, but we never forget to buy Polvoron. The very first product from Goldilocks who touched my heart. The first product who made Goldilocks number 1 in my heart. I love Goldilocks!

You're the 1 Goldilocks, because you keep making delicious Polvorons and gives beautiful moments in our life. :D

IT3 Studies

2009-07-09T21:36:00.002+08:00

Hi classmates! If you are my classmate. :D

We have created a new blog wherein few of your responsible classmates will be sharing information and resources from our lessons and classes.

Right now, we are not yet in concern with the design of the blog really. We are actually looking for some people who could do such updates for the particular blog. If you think that you are capable of doing that, then join up.

If you want to be a contributor to the blog, because you like to, just submit your emails to programitjin@gmail.com and don't forget to check your emails to see if you are already approved as a contributor.

Thank you classmate for your cooperation. Thanks thanks thanks..

Here's the link to the blog. IT3Studies

Send My Love to Heaven

2009-07-08T05:54:00.005+08:00

Hello guys, I just wanted to share some inspirational stories that I've read already before. This one is about 2 lovers and the story of their love life, until someone has to let go and someone has to accept.

Believe me guys, this is really a good story. The author is also unknown. Some people over the internet admit that they are the author of the story, but I don't think so.

I don't want to spoil it up all. So read up!

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SEND MY LOVE TO HEAVEN
author: unknown

What can I say about a girl I loved since I was ten... that I love the way she laughs at me when I commit mistakes, the way she fusses over silly things and even the way she cries over some sad silly late night show...

She was my best friend and I have known her since we were small. She knew all my secrets, which reveals my feelings for her, that I love her not only because she's pretty and smart but also the way she laughs at everything and the way she sees life and love. I could still remember the first time we met; I was five years old then. It was one windy afternoon having no one to play with except for my best friend, Troy. He and his family just moved out to a neighboring state at transfer because his father got promoted. And so I climbed up our tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It stopped in front of the house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when came out the loveliest girl I've ever seen.

She was four years old that time but then even at an early age she was a beauty. She had long curly hair, which reached almost to her waist. She had fair complexion and eyes which could make a man lose his heart into them. I continued to watch her when suddenly she looked up and saw me watching them in the tree house window. I was about to duck when she smiled and waved her hand. I waved back and then watched in amazement as I saw her running towards the tree house. So I went to the edge of the ladder and said, "Would you like to come up?" she answered, "May I?" So I help her climb up and when she reached the top she then turned to me and said, "By the way, my name's Sam, what's yours?" I answered, "My name is Christopher but then you can call me Chris." She smiled and said, "Well I like your name. Hey your tree house's neat!" then I replied, "Thanks! Troy and I made this. This used to be our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball and go biking together. He was my best friend and I kind of miss him you know." She smiled and said "I'm here now, we could do things you do with Troy and I could be your new best friend too. I never had a boy for a friend before so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now how does that sound to you?" I smiled and said, "Well that sounds good enough." Then she held her hand and said, "It's a deal then!"

So that's how it started. So we became best friends and it was kind of strange at first for she was a girl and there are things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her like catching frogs, swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but then she tried and did everything just to please me. There was even a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped knee. I could still remember the time when she hit the window of our neighbor when we were playing baseball and it was I who talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damage, which meant having to loose a week's allowance. I remembered the time when I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten because Sam was near to tears when she saw the helpless kitten trapped in a branch. I even fought with the tough guy when they teased Sam and made her cry and I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. I remember Sam crying as she placed an ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything her little heart desires.

The lake was our favorite hang out. We had our Saturday swim routine. We would pack food and later eat them under the big oak tree. There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit together and tell each other's dreams. She dreams of being a Ballerina and she knows my dream of becoming a doctor. She never laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they were quite impossible. It made me like her even more.

As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were slowly changing. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night, dreaming of her and having the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something different, something that made me feel strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It made me feel so alive. Whenever our hands touch, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once when we were at the lake having our Saturday swim routine and as I carried her towards the water edge, I had the feeling of not wanting to let go. I just wanted that moment to continue hoping it would never end. I then realized I was slowly falling in love with my best friend.

Many times I tried to deny the feeling for I was scared to imagine what would happen if ever I'd try to tell her how I feel about her. I was scared because she might think that I'm taking advantage of her and our friendship. I was afraid of losing her so I just kept my feeling hidden.

We reached the age of fifteen and I noticed that Sam grew lovelier each day. How my heart aches wherever I see boys glance her way. I want to punch their noses as I watch them talking to her giving compliments, flowers and chocolates. There were times when I watch her at a distance with mixed feelings of anger and hurt! Because it hurts so much to know that there were so many things I wanted to tell her but then I could not do so. There were so many presents which I long to give her but then I could not for she might see me only as a friend. I was also scared of letting her know how I feel about her as much as losing her.

Then one day, I just learned from a friend that she already had a boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumor. Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team to which Mark was the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot that afternoon, I watched her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces. I saw her wave at me but I just pretended not to see her for I was scared that she might see in my eyes the pain I'm feeling inside because of seeing her with another guy. Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my heart aches when I see her walk by me with him at her side. Every time we meet in hallways and I see him around her, there's a feeling inside me that makes me want to grab her away from him. How it hurts to see the girl I long possess was now owned by somebody else. That special smile I long for her to cast on me was now casted on him. As she passes by me she doesn't know that I whisper the words "God how I love you."

Then one faithful day they broke up. She came too me that evening crying on my shoulder. They had a big fight and it ended up with their break up. Mixed feelings were scaring me inside. I was happy because she was free and maybe I would have the chance of telling her my true feelings for her but then I was feeling so bad because she is crying her heart out just for him. At that time, I was not quite sure of what I wanted to do.

So we found ourselves doing what we did in old days with our Saturday swim routine, spending time in our tree house. We still enjoyed doing childish pranks for we still are both young at heart. So many chances I had for me to confess my feelings for her but still I couldn't bring myself to her for I was scared of losing her once more. I once lost her, now I could not bear of losing her again by telling her, "I love her". So I just kept my feelings even if it was bursting to be expressed from my aching heart.

It was a week from our JS Prom, we were seated at the branch of an oak tree drying ourselves after our afternoon swim when she said, "I was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?" It just got out of my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happen. It took me awhile to answer her, "I thought there are so many boys who would die for you to be their partner?" So she turned away and quietly said, "Well I just thought I would like to spend that night with my best friend." Then she continued in a whisper I could barely hear, "Don't you want to die just like them to be my partner Chris?" I was too stunned to speak for it came close for me to blurt my feelings for her. We… we're silent for a while until I finally whispered, "I would be happy to be your partner Sam. "The she smiled and suddenly kissed my cheek. I could hardly contain the joy I felt that time. I saw her turned red and bowed her head. Suddenly she stood up and run towards the water saying, "Last one to reach the water treats to sundae fudge!”I ran slowed up so that I would lose which meant having to have her with me for another three hours or more.

Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured almost the entire bottle of perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Sam's mother greeted me and I went to sit in the living room waiting for her to come down. I was talking to her father when I heard her say, "How do I look?" I look up and saw her lovelier than ever in a strapless white dress with her hair flowing around her face. I stood up and opened my mouth but found out I could not find my voice. Then I got her hand shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist and whispered, "To the loveliest girl in the whole world." She then asked, "Is that true?" I nodded and she smiled and I smiled back then I turned to open the door for her. When we arrived at the gymnasium we hardly recognized our classmates. Gone were the jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with tuxedos and gowns. Then I held out her hand bowed and said, "Would you give me the honor of your first dance?" She laughed and curtseyed. Then I led her to the dance floor. It was like a dream coming true, a moment of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I ever loved. She was smiling up to me, as we were slowly moving in a smooth gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her beautiful face. There were so many things I wanted to tell her that moment. I wanted to tell that she was the most beautiful girl that night. I wanted to tell her that she would always be the beacon of light in my darkness, but what I wanted to tell her the most was that I love her. I drew up all my courage and bent to whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but still haven't done it.

We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends. I asked her if she wanted a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one. It took me a long time to get one and when I returned to our table, she was gone. I asked her friend, Katie, where she was but she told me that she doesn't know. So I went to search for her. As I was searching for her, I reached the garden. There I saw two silhouette figures outlined by the moon's silvery light. They were so close to each other that I could never describe the feeling I had when I recognized the white dress that Sam was wearing that night. I just turned and left the gymnasium.

Since that night, I avoided her. Many times she tried talking to me but I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say that she loves Mark and not me. I would rather have left in ignorance of her true feelings for me than to hear from those dreaded words and feel my hope crush and my heart break. I didn't return her calls. I would not see her if she comes into our house. In the hallways, as she approaches I would go to another direction. It also hurts to do those things but then I thought that was the best way to forget her. Those months were tormenting but still I kept my pride.

The day of our graduation came. I was planning to take up medicine at a neighboring state and was to move out the next day. As the program ended, she approached me and handed me a rose. As she stared at me, there was something in her eyes I couldn't describe. There was sadness in them and when she smiled it wasn't the same smile she had. I wanted to hug her at that moment, tell her that I love her but then she turned and walked away from me.

So I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at the university. I concentrated with my studies but still I think of her at night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried hard not to think of her but still I could not stop myself from loving her. Each achievement I have was done for her. I thought that if I will be successful one day, I would be able to tell her that I love her and by that time, I'm worthy of having her.

It was a year after our graduation when I decided to return home and see her again. I thought a year is too much for me not to see her and during the past year I felt like a person lost in the desert and only the sight of her could quench the thirst I have inside. As I got off the plane, I went home directly, desperate to get to her house desperate to see her, to hug her. Then I would tell her that I missed her and that I have loved her for a long time. This time I am determined to let her know my true feelings for her and I could not contain anymore the love I have for her. I reached their house; I saw her elder sister and I approached her. I smiled at her but I noticed she didn't smile back. I was confused for she used to be a cheerful lady just like my dear Sam. I then asked, "Hi Jen! I guess you're surprised why I'm here. Well I just want to visit you and I was also hoping to see Sam. I kind of miss her you know. Mmm… by the way have you seen her?" All I saw was sadness in her eyes as she replied quietly "Come follow me."

I was confused with the way she's acting but still I followed her. As we were walking, I was trying to indulge her in a conversation but she just answered my question briefly. Then I realized that she was leading me to the direction of the lake. It was still the same as I left it, with the same oak tree, Sam and I used to climb up. I smiled upon remembering the kiss Sam gave me when I agreed to be her partner. It's been one of the happiest days in my life and I realized that I missed Sam more than I thought. Then Jen stopped walking and pointed to the tree. She then whispered, "There's Sam."

I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I ever loved. I could not believe at what I saw and desperately tried convincing myself that this is all just a nightmare and I would soon wake up. I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for explanations and she slowly started saying, "It has been a week since she died. She died of Leukemia, but even though she was sick, she never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regards this place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent the happiest days and that was when she was with you. By the way, she also asked me to give you this." She handed me a parcel and with that she left.

I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it contained the dried orchid from the corsage I gave her for our prom. Then at the bottom I saw a letter. It was dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands and started reading........

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I know… by this time you read this letter I'm gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it just bloomed each day that's why the happiest days of my life was… when you were by my side. You just don't know how I dreamed of you at night and wake up in the morning and dream no more for you were with me. When you were away, I can't stop crying because I was afraid to think that you are with another girl. I just can't bear to see you with another girl. I just want you all to myself. I may sound selfish but that's how I feel.

Each time, you held me close to you, was like a dream coming true, for to be close to you and feel your heart beating next to mine was like heaven. So many things I did so that you will learn to love me but I NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please you because I love you so much that I even tried to fool myself that you're in love with me too. So many nights I've cried when I think of myself unloved by you. Well you might think that what I'm saying are lies but, I tell you, my heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling a lie to the one I love. I know you might be thinking of Mark; but I just did that to make you jealous, to make you see me as a young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to know… how you would react and with that I'll know that you love me too. But I failed for you didn't give me any clue. When our prom night came, you just don't know how happy I was when you handed me the corsage and saying that I was the loveliest girl in the whole world. While we were dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you love me too but you NEVER did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression so I told him we would talk in the garden. There I explained to him that it's you whom I really love.

What happened next was that I found you missing and later learned that you were searching for me, I just concluded that you saw us together. The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance to do so. You continuously avoided me and never knew how much pain I've experienced that time. I felt the world crushing on me. In our Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted to tell you… how much I loved you but I decided that I just couldn't do it. I could not bear to hear that all you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love. For I want you to love me as a woman and not as a girl or playmate. So I just turned away and left.

Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late, but still I want you to know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.

P.S.: Think of me sometimes... and always remember that loving you was the best thing that ever happened in my life.
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I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout out to let her know that I love her, if not as much, but more than she did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. I knelt touching the soil of her grave and rain started to fall. I continued crying softly and whispered, "Oh God, send my love to heaven."

END.
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What do you think about the story?

It was lost, and now it was back

2009-07-06T21:23:00.000+08:00

Last week, I lost my SIM Card. It was my very first Smart SIM Card. I bought it when I was still in my Second Year HIgh School and now I'm in my 3rd Year College. I can't imagine how long and long it was already. It's still functioning very well. That's one of the technologies that offered durability and long time use for us. I searched for it in every possible places that it can be dropped at home or left at home. But, I failed. This afternoon, my sister and mother went to SM and have one of our damaged phones repaired. My sister told me that the when the tech opened the phone, they found a SIM. She thought it was mine. She gave it to me, including the phone. I found some familiar numbers that happens to be my contacts. I found out that it was the SIM I lost.

I also lost some of my few things lately. They're not just things actually but something important. I lost my concentration in continuing to create this project that I've been working on for a long time already. I think I can no longer continue that project because of some school projects and requirements that I need to comply. I might just continue it after I finish some requirements.

There's another thing that was lost. It is something that can't be stolen from you. I lost few of the things I learned about C Language. This afternoon, I handled a tutorial about it. It went good, because I was prepared and had a review about it last night. I also made a slideshow so that I will have a guide on what to teach about C for our freshmen. I finished early in the lecture and immediately went to the coding sample time. I found out that I forgot to bring some of the programs I made for the tutorial and some programs to share for the freshmen. It was no luck. I coded those things again and it's a waste of time.

Gladly, all those things went back to me when I heard some inspirational qoutes from the movies we've been watching here right now. For example, "Keep Moving forward - Meet the Robinsons ", "It just started again, don't give up already. - Night at the Museum" and so on. I decided to just delay the continuation of the program I've been making and study back C so that I can teach well during my tutorials. I will also be concentrating on the things I think I can finish earlier, I will prioritize things.

"It's good to reflect, you'll learn from it. - jin"

School Stuff this Week

2009-07-05T18:44:00.008+08:00

Exercise 2.ptt - Assignment starts at Slide #14.

It's not a clear copy again! Irritating. X_X What a professor!

This will be a busy week I think. And and.. Accounting! Lab exercises. and Etc.

O.S. Subjects quiz after lec. X_X and etc.!! just click continue reading below.

The link for the Accounting assignment is at the end of the post.

Additional REMINDERS:
1. No Class on Database tomorrow lab and lec, but you can still enter the laboratory.
2. CS301 - CISCO we'll be the only subject that will conduct a lecture tomorrow.
3. No S.A.D. lecture tomorrow.
4. Accounting Assignment due on Tuesday - I guess during our laboratory.
5. IRM Reaction Paper on the movie entitled 'The Illicit Dark Trade' is due on Tuesday.
6. Expect that there will be a quiz on IRM this Tuesday.
7. Expect Quiz after O.S. lectures. So if you want to study earlier. Just study.
8. NEW CISCO Packet Tracer available for download .. Click here to download.

Click here to download the Accounting Assignment Slide - Remember! Slide #14 is the start of the assignment.

If you have questions, or more reminders please post it as a comment so that others can read it. :D Thank you!

Back to Basics

2009-07-05T16:48:00.002+08:00

I was assigned to be a tutor on C Language again. It has been a long time since the last time I coded some programs using it. It is a good language though, but I can't stick to it for so long because we use a different language now, namely JAVA. C is really very basic, a structured programming language. It is powerful, but due to the development in our technology, some doesn't use this kind of language anymore. They use Object-Oriented Programming Language.

Our professors always teach the freshmen C. And they only taught us the basics of it which are Looping, Variables, Global Declarations, Arrays, Functions and Structures. It's up to us students to explore and learn how to create GUIs.

I will be studying again this things tomorrow and prepare my lesson plan so that I can finish the tutorial earlier. I don't expect many freshmen to come though. But, if it happens that many will come, I won't fail them on the first session of the tutorial and also in the next sessions.

Therapy

2009-07-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

Early this morning, at around 5:30am we traveled to Davao del Norte to see a known therapist who's thought to be good. My fathers' boss is having a weekly treatment with this therapist, and had helped him treat his health problems. Also, my father's boss has a daughter with toxic goiter. She's also been seeing this therapist and has treated her health problems and the results were good. Her, goiter became smaller and almost gone.

Traveling from early morning makes me feel tired and so I fell asleep inside the service while traveling. My father woke me up. I immediately thought that we already arrived at our destination, but it was not the therapist's house. It's rumored that he has a lot of customers every day. Ranging from 90-120 a day. That house I saw has no customers at all. It's so quiet. I asked my uncle who's house was that. He said, it was Sir Belo's house. Ah! I see. My father mentioned to me last night that we'll be going to the therapist with his boss. I asked where we are and my uncle replied in Tagum.

It was not in Tagum. The house of the therapist is not located in Tagum. It's at Asuncion, north of Tagum, my Father told me. Eek, we will be traveling again later.

I ate the snack I brought to fill my stomach a little more because I have not eaten well before we traveled because of a hurry.

I saw a Pick-up entered Sir Belo's gates. It will be their service, I guess. My father went back to our service and said that we'll be following Sir Belo's service. We're a convoy? I knew it! My father didn't know where exactly is the house of the therapist. LoL.

We started to travel again as Sir Belo's service lead the way. As, we traveled back again. I saw many places in Tagum. I thought Tagum City is small, but no. There are many buildings there. It is also a beautiful place to live. Not so long, I'm no longer seeing buildings. Instead, I'm seeing Banana plantations, and rice fields. It was so green. The fields are so vast and as well as the plantations. This place, sure is a very productive place in terms of agricultural products.

Our service just turned left. My father told me that we're already there. Finally! It's 20 minutes north of Tagum at a speed of 20-40KPH. There are many tricycles and some services, including an ?Ambulance? there. What? an Ambulance? I guess some doctors from Davao del Norte believes this therapist.

We're there. I saw many people gathered in one place. That's one of the rumors. I'm already in the list, including my father, his boss, and his boss' family. we're at around customer number 20. That's not so far.

There's a chapel beside his house. The people call the Therapist 'Pas'. I asked my father why, he said because he's a 'Pastor'. What? He's a pastor. Whoahw. He's talented. haha. Waiting almost 1 hour there my butt seems to ache from sitting. I stood up, and suddenly there's a voice calling for us. My father said that it's our turn already.

I had the therapy and it feels so good. He said that I had a problem in my Bronchial. That is why I had cough for a very long time already. He recommend me to take Vitamin C so that I'll be cure already and attend the session until I'm no longer feeling sick.

Every Saturday morning I'll be going there. So I'm not gonna be available during those times. This will be tiring.

That was fast - Naruto

2009-07-03T14:41:00.003+08:00

As expected, Naruto 454 was up early this day. One Piece and Bleach is always the first one to be updated during Fridays, and it was also updated early this day so I was expecting to have Naruto earlier too-it did! Thanks to sleepy fans.

It was just all about the meeting of the five kages and Danzo's connection to Orochimaru, and his plans. He's looking for Kabuto- Orochimarus Med and like secretary. He wants him to help him recover his right arm and right eye through Orochimarus experiments.

On the other side. Naruto was beaten by the eight-tailed-guy-Jinchuriki's allies because he doesn't want to tell something about Sasuke's skills and instead told them to hit as much as they can instead of Sasuke.

I'll be looking forward for the upcoming episodes. Naruto is still the best manga that I've been reading.

My Project Blog Launched!

2009-07-01T10:27:00.003+08:00

I was actually browsing my active electronic mail accounts: eug5ne@yahoo.com, xyujin@yahoo.com, programitjin@gmail.com and j1nd3m0n@gmail.com, and I found out in my programitjin@gmail account that I have a Wordpress account registered to it since last Sep 2008. I found my old blog and my first blog in WP. I decided to revive it and change it to a Project blog of mine. I will be posting there my project documentations, things like Systems Design, Query Optimization, and etc.

I don't know if I can manage all my 3 active blogs including Zmrac and this random blog-dedMind. But I will try to do such thing possibly. I'm not a pro-blogger at all.

Before I forgot here's the link to my Project Blog Program-it-jin and to know more about the blog click here.

Thank you for reading.

Tired

2009-06-30T22:31:00.004+08:00

Indeed this Accounting Information Systems class of ours is the most tiring class during laboratory sessions and lecture sessions. We always have something to do. Like, there's no break at all. Our teacher gave us some requirements last week, and it was actually due last Thursday. We bought the requirements and damn, she didn't even checked it.

Early this morning, at our laboratory session in the AIS subject, we did a lot of things. First, we need to create a clone document for the actual documents presented in the Power Point that was given to us by our professor, it's a disaster actually. She didn't require us to bring something that was used for the activity, like for example a Deposit Slip. Where the hell and when the hell did that came from? We need to create it using a Yellow Paper, which is actually a waste of time and paper. If she just told us to bring a deposit slip, it'll be easier for us to do the activity, all the 12 transactions. There are other things she forgot to tell us for the activity, i.e. Payroll Sheet, an empty Invoice and etc. She's a cool teacher. I think she's a noob one. :D Next we did, the Journalizing which is hell, a lot of things to consider: Indentions, date, positioning, definition and etc. I wasted at least 3 papers of my General Journal Book just to do it the correct way. Next, we did the T-Accounts, no problem here. That was an easy job including the balancing. Finally, in the afternoon, our last activity of the day was to write all the accounts in the General Ledger Book. We didn't finished the activity so we had it as an assignment and it is due this Thursday. I hope I won't forget it. Last thing, she required us to study because we had a quiz this Thursday. D*mn. Cool teacher... >.<

In our IRM (Information Resource Management) subject we just have a lecture and it was actually fruitful since I gained knowledge and in a way without getting tired, unlike the first subject of the day.

S.A.D. (Systems Analysis and Design) long test! So SAD T_T. I expect to fail the test. I admit that I haven't studied. Even though I answered all the items, there's only 25%(percent) that I will get the correct answer for the Multiple choice and 50-50 to the True or False type of test. In 60-40 base of our school, there's a total of 70%(percent) chance to pass the True or False, and a total of 55%(percent) chance to pass the Multiple Choice, and a total of 77.5%(percent) chance to pass all in all the long test we had, if I got 100% of the chance. Confusing isn't it? I guess this is the effect. >.< After the long test, our professor gave us our final groupings for our S.A.D. and called us so that he can or we can choose our final companies where in we will implement our final projects for the semester and for the next semester. We had bad luck in choosing the company and actually we were not yet assigned to a company. We will still look for a company near Davao that needs our help in designing some business systems. We're actually practicing our skills to act like a Systems Analyst. It's not that easy even at start. Supposedly we have to conduct our preliminary investigation starting tomorrow. No luck! There's still no company assigned to us.

After our S.A.D. laboratory session, which we had the long test there, the groupings and the company assignments, we had again our A.I.S. class and I hate it. After it, we had our last subject for the day. It's already evening, 6pm. The class ends at approx 8pm. It's our Philosophy 101 class. I had fun, even though I haven't answered the question during the oral recitation and received a 6/10 result from the previous sessions essay quiz.

McDonald's time. After the class, we went to McDo in Gaisano Mall of Davao to hang out a bit and make ourselves full before going home. We had a little chit chat with my berkz while we were eating :D

The day was so tiring. I'm really full of food and information. Bad news also, I spent my whole week allowance in just 2 days. Haha. I don't know how I will survive for the coming days. Eeek...

Zmrac

2009-06-29T07:00:00.004+08:00

Here's another blog I created. Zmrac. It is all about computer tweaks, hacking and etc. I also write there some of the free applications I find useful over the web. It is hosted under Blogger and is currently active.

I update that blog if there's something I found out that's interesting and may help you guys. We know that there are a lot of blogs or websites out there with the same idea but mine's only basic. I don't talk complicated things out there. I make it easier and much more understandable by many and especially for those who are not too familiar with computer stuffs.

I created the blog for fun, to help and for online-money-making. If you have something to ask out there, just send emails to programit@gmail.com. Include your name and email. Thank you.

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Problems in Writing Stories

2009-06-27T21:18:00.004+08:00

I've been in a lot of reading with the book entitled "Stories for the Heart". A good book. Inspirational and as its cover says, it encourages your soul. I am inspired by the stories and also the writers of those stories. I am jealous of what they write and how they write.

There are a lot of good people there who's so good at expressing their thoughts, experiences and whatsoever. I knew one that's so close to me. My sister who's in Manila now having her training as a flight attendant is also good in writing. Well, it can't be denied. She graduated with honors. One of my girl classmates is also a good writer. I've been a fan and a good reader to every writing she make in one of her online outlet.

These guys for me are talented. They can write easily what they want to express. I don't know how they do that easily. They really inspired me.

There was one time, I tried to write an inspirational story. I had troubles, I failed to finish it. I lacked the knowledge to do it. Maybe no the knowledge, but the experience. I learned from that experience. If you don't have the experience of what you want to write, you can't write it. But you can write others experiences and stories. In the end, I may end up writing others stories.

Real Winner

2009-06-26T22:14:00.001+08:00

Competitions are always fun. It's a nice way do enjoy and do recreation. A sport maybe, or anything that you can compete. It is easy to win, sometimes not. But what does it really mean when you win? What is really a winner? and Who is really a winner?

For me, a winner does not just win a battle. or a competition, but he also wins the crowds attention, and sympathy.

Let's say, there is an accident in a running game. One of your foe had a sprain and stumbling. Would you be willing to help? Or continue the race to win?

The real winner is the one who will help. He or she is a winner, winning not the competition, but the heart of everybody. There are many ways to win, but there is a rare opportunity to win a heart.

A real winner is not a selfish winner. He or she shares his glory for everybody, a kind person, a sportsman and helpful.

Accounting Reference 02

2009-06-25T19:58:00.003+08:00

Hello classmates here is our Accounting Slideshow for Week 2.

Click here to download.

Update: We will have a quiz on July 2, 2009. So be prepared. :D

Feast of St. John

2009-06-24T20:25:00.003+08:00

St. John the Baptist, the one who baptized our creator's son, Jesus Christ. It's his feast today. But did we remember?

My mother told me about it. I was surprised. I forgot about it really. When we were still young, we always go to beaches to get ourselves wet the way Jesus was baptized. It's a superstition for me, but since it has been part of my parents culture I'll try to adopt it. This coming Saturday, maybe will be going to our vacation house in Samal, and then try to go to the seashore near the house, maybe I'll dive in to the sea also to enjoy my visit there.

It's a culture of our religion to celebrate feasts of our holy saints. Hopefully there are some people who celebrated John the Baptist's feast, cause we forgot to.

Transformers 2: Revenge of the fallen

2009-06-24T09:59:00.006+08:00

Transformers 2: Revenge of the fallen is a sequel to it's first movie Transformers(2007) who's story was narrated by Optimus Prime. The story of the Cube, the All Spark and the beginnings of their life in Cybertron up until they were betrayed by Megatron and seeks power over the Cybertrons. They have created groups, those who were against Megatron are the Autobots and those who are with Megatron are the Decepticons. The cube was lost and landed in the unknown planet, Earth. The Decepticons loose during the battle. Megatron died, but his allies are still alive and ready to seek Revenge.

And now the revenge is coming.

After the defeat, Starscream returned to Cybertron and takes the command of the Decepticons. He seeks revenge to the Autobots that remained in Earth getting more force. Autobots found out that Megatrons remains in the U.S. Military was stolen by Skorpinox. Megatron was revived using Skorpinox's own spark.

Since Megatron is back, he seeks revenge together with Starscream and more Decepticons. Decepticons are now more powerful and Autobots were outnumbered. Even with the help of the Human beings, it's still hard to fight these intelligent machines. Autobots thought that peace was possible. Battle on Earth has just ended but the battle in the universe has just began.

Visit the official website: TransformersMovie.com

Chess

2009-06-21T18:55:00.002+08:00

Mind games is really hard. They're not like those physical games that skills can be easily developed. Board games are usually mind games, for example generals and they're easy to play, but it's hard to win against a very good opponent. Especially when you're opponent is too advance like the computer AI's.

I've been trying to defeat this computer chess engine named Chessgenius. I know there are a lot of other chess engines there and maybe they're better than this, but it's already an enough opponent for me.

I always lose in all the games I played against this chess engine. I didn't have fun at all. Not until I played with my father, who thought me to how to play chess, and I beat him easily. I gained something from the chess engine. It helped me explore more advanced moves. Thinking too much advance moves and especially it's main weapon the openings. When I knew that the opening is really important. I studied the engines openings. It is really good. I can't counter attack it's opening that's why I always lose.

You can try the engine. http://www.chessgenius.com/pc/index.html . Goodluck, tell me what you think about the program >:p. And tell me if you accidentally won a battle :D

Confessions

2009-06-20T17:25:00.006+08:00

A situation, a battle between strength and weakness. It's a difficult situation. For me maybe. I'm sick. I admit it. My body is weak, that's because of my carelessness. It's really true that nothing's more important than your life. My parents always remind me of my health, but I am not that kinda child who listens too much of my parents advices.

I spend a lot of time playing computer games than exploring the wonders of the world with my PC. I was not kinda like this before, but when my friends introduce me this GArena software that allows gamers to connect to other gamers around the world, as it says in its motto "connecting world gamers", I became addicted.

I don't really play too much here at home, because I hate computer opponents. Sometimes they're good and sometimes they're too bad. But with GArena, i am able to play with gamers in different countries. I played a lot since then, even if I am loosing, I mean if I'm not too lucky in the games I played.

Winning is not my real goal in playing computer games. I want to test my mind. With games, you can create strategies, calculate fast, analyze fast and so on. It's fun.

Fun, excitement that's what games gives you. When you're addicted to it. It's hard to stop. And the effects are really hard to exit.

I've been sick for a few days now, I didn't had time to play games. I need to rest. Well, I was able to resist the addiction, or maybe I'm not really addicted. I feel sorry for myself. Before, I forgot to take care of my body and now it's like I am being slowly taken over by the weakness of my body. I need to rest. I need to fight this thing inside my body. I don't blame anything other than me, myself. I was too dumb. I never realized this before. I thought I am strong enough to be away from being sick.

I guess its in my history. I had a weak immune system since the time I was bitten with many bees together with my younger brother who passed away a long time ago when we were still young. I am playing a game right now, but not a computer game anymore. It's a battle between strength and weakness. I will really fight now. I will do everything to prove that I'm not weak, body, mind and soul. I will fight, before it turns out to be a battle between my life and death.

There's nothing more important than our health, our life. It's our primary weapon. Not our brain not our intellectual capabilities. But it's host. Our body.

I will never forget this experience. This very difficult situation. That is if I'm able to exit and win the battle, nor the other way around will be my destiny.

Bing vs Google

2009-06-19T13:38:00.005+08:00

They said that Bing from Microsoft is taking a higher percent in terms of getting users to use its service, but it didn't quite get my attention.

I tried to use Bing. I typed something in the search query for it to search for. It displayed results in no time, but somehow it was not the results I am expecting to have.

I tried Google again, and there are the results I was expecting to have. Google is still the best search engine for me. It displays the results I really wanted to have. It really helps me on my research really well.

Bing maybe a threat to Google, but for me. Google is still the best search engine.

Accounting Reference 01

2009-06-18T20:01:00.009+08:00

To all my classmates, you can now download our Accounting Slideshow for the 1st week.Study our lessons because there might be a quiz next tuesday.

Just click the image or the button to download the file.
Accounting Basics Week 01

<$BlogItemURL$> not working

2009-06-17T07:20:00.011+08:00

So you reached this site because of the trouble in your template.

The <$BlogItemURLThe <$BlogItemURL$> is not working for your tweak also. I found a solution about that so don't worry.
gt; is not working for your tweak also. I found a solution about that so don't worry.

It's just simple, here's how you do it.

<div class="post"><a name="<$BlogItemNumber$>"></a>
 <BlogItemTitle>
<h3 class="post-title">
<BlogItemUrl>
<a href="<$BlogItemURL$>"><$BlogItemTitle$></a>
</BlogItemUrl>
</h3>
</BlogItemTitle>

Just change it to this code


<div class="post"><a name="<$BlogItemNumber$>"></a>
  <BlogItemTitle>
<h3 class="post-title">
<a href="<$BlogItemPermalinkURL$>"><$BlogItemTitle$></a>
</h3>
</BlogItemTitle>

You see the difference is, instead of putting <$BlogItemURL$> I put <$BlogItemPermalinkURL$>. I also deleted the XML or whatever we call it, that's surrounding the link code .

It worked for me, so hopefully it also works for you. Thanks for visiting. If you had trouble doing it or if you have questions just post it as a comment. Thank you again.

Trouble in CS301 CISCO Reference

2009-06-17T07:07:00.005+08:00

I heard some people say that they had trouble in accessing the offline reference for our CISCO networks in CS301 subject.

I did not experience any trouble while accessing it.

Well I guess you should use IE or Internet Explorer instead of Firefox. There will be a lot of prompting for blocked content. Just allow it. For the first time you do that. You will be redirected to the Macromedia website, it's a site which has option for setting your flash player. You will just add the directory where you put your CISCO main.swf and then your done.

Try refreshing the page, the start.html one and then you can now open other options. Like in the combo box you choose the introduction ... . a pop-up will show, don't close it. On top of that there is another prompt that content is blocked, click on it and allow it. This happens most of the time so just allow the blocked content and you can view it.

I tried accessing it using the Mozilla and there's the trouble. Instead of using firefox use IE don't trouble yourself anymore to try using it in Mozilla Firefox, but it's really your choice anyways.

Sick Sucks

2009-06-16T21:06:00.002+08:00

Too bad I'm still sick. Every Tuesdays and Thursdays our class ends at almost 8:00pm already. We don't have a long break that's enough for us to take our dinner before that class. I can't take my medicine on time. Damn! It's a big problem. I was hoping so much that this week I will be out of this sickness. Hopefully, soon, I will be really out of this. I will go to the doctor tomorrow, and have a check up. Hope this won't get worse. My father still have to take his medicines, but he stopped because of financial problems. I don't want to add another burden. Please help me Lord!

"Prevention is better than cure." This is really true. After this trial, I will really try to have a healthy life. I will discipline myself.

Hope others won't experience this. So if you don't discipline yourself, better start now. :D

CS301 and IT272 References

2009-06-15T21:14:00.018+08:00

Hello classmates here is our CS301 (computer networks 1) and IT272 few references that are available as of today. You can download by just clicking on the download buttons or images below with it's respected label so that you will not be confused of what you are downloading.

No Virus Included! It's 101% clean. I'm sure of that.

CS301 - Sir Rey Aliño

Cisco Networking Academy Program (55mb)

Book by Tanenbaum (13.1mb)

CCNA2v3Scope PDF (40kb)

IT272 SAD - Sir Oneil Victoriano

Chapter 1 SAD (Systems Analysis and Design) (360kb) LONG QUIZ on WEDNESDAY.

That's all classmates and friends. Let us study well.

Classes starts today

2009-06-15T06:53:00.003+08:00

Classes starts today.

My 1st class will be at 8:00AM. Not too early for me now, cause I wake up mostly everyday at 5:00AM.

It's the first day today so I guess there will be no classes yet. Just some introductions about the subject maybe or if the teacher is new then you will introduce yourself to the teacher.

Our 1st class is going to be in the laboratory, but it has been our division's attitude not to have laboratory classes on the first week of school yet. So I guess we will not have a class this morning until the next class at 12:25PM.

Hopefully the day will go well. I'm quite okay now. I recovered from my sick somehow, and hope this will continue until I became fully cured.

"Life will be easy, if you make it easier for you." -xin

Scheduled Outage of Blogger?

2009-06-13T16:58:00.001+08:00

I just want to share with you, even if you knew it already or not, that the blogger team from Google, is always having a maintenance.

They need to do this because they want to improve things much better for all of us, Users. :D
So You don't need to panic if you do. 'Cause I'm not. Whatever.

This monday, June 15, 2009 @ 12:00AM PDT for just only about 10 minutes. We don't know what will happen. So maybe it'll take longer or shorter.

Saturday of the month

2009-06-13T16:15:00.001+08:00

Saturday morning was fun. It's 4:00am in the morning when I started to turn on the computer. There are a lot of things to do, and it's not important at all. Haha. Well, I am confused yet of what to do. It's either I will play computer games or watch episodes of my fave animes. I visit my favorite website for watching animes, crunchyroll. Who would have not loved the site? It is fast. It has nice and simple webdesign which is also user friendly. Crunchyroll has lots of animes. Almost all new anime episodes are there. I watched 2 episodes of Naruto Shippuden. I really don't like those 2 episodes because it has lots of talk rather than action. :D That's why I shifted into playing computer games.

Warcraft III. Defence of the Ancients or in short DOTA. I resist it, it's my favorite game. I had the new map, and I want to test it. It has lots of new changes from the previous versions, including the heroes, the items and some changes to the skills. Batrider, a new hero. Intelligence type. Already added it to my fav heroes. It's skills are awesome. You can kill the enemy even with just your still level 2. If you knew how to do it though. Lucky I am, I knew how to do it. We have also the new hero Tauren Chieftain. It is a strength type hero. It's strong, but I guess I still need to practice how to control it properly, because all the kills that supposed to be mine will become my other teammate's kill.

Enough with the play time, I need to cook our breakfast meal. I left the computer downloading a movie entitled "Drag me to hell." It's really popular here. They say it's a nice and really scary movie. So I tried to download a copy of it that's available in the internet.

Damn, I don't know how to cook this one. I asked the help of my sister. She's good in cooking. I like the food she cooks and also the same goes for my other sister. It's a simple dish, but it has lot's of steps. And basically my problem was, I don't know what's the taste of the food :D I guess I forgot. I finished cooking, oh! I mean, we finished cooking and prepared the table for breakfast. There are only four of us. My younger sister, my older sister, our houseboy, and me. My parents are out of town. They didn't came home the other day. They slept at our vacation house in Samal. My other brother was in Manila to compete basketball in their Rexona 3on3 Championship held at the Mall of Asia. My other older sister, was also in Manila to. She's having her training as a Stewardess for Cebu Pacific Airlines there. She's been there for two weeks already, and she'll be back after 6 weeks. And then, back there again to work already. I miss her so much :D and I'll definitely miss her much more because she'll be working as an international flight attendant.

We already finished eating, I went to bath after that. We went to the cafe near our house, we call it the "Blue House" because it's completely covered with a blue paint. I played with our houseboy his favorite game NBALive. He didn't win again. I won 5 games over him before he surrendered. We went home after two hours of playing. It's lunch time already. We all ate together again. I went to the computer to see if the download already finished. But, it's not downloading. The internet connection was disconnected. Toinks. I told my sister to check it out but she didn't. I restarted the connection and it downloaded again. I had to wait 1 hour again for the movie to be downloaded. :D When I'm going to wait for the download to be completed I usually sleep.

I heard voices from somewhere. It's calling my name. I guess it was my younger sister. She wake me up. She told me that the download was completed. Yes, it's finished. We all went to the living room to watch the movie.

The movie didn't scare me at all. I thought, it would be another horror movie to scare me, but it was not. Feng Shui scared me, Exorcism of Emily Rose scared me and Wrong Turn scared me too. But all the rest of the horror movies I watched didn't even scared me a bit. It's not worth watching for me :D. I don't what for the others. But it really is not worth watching for me. In fact, instead of being scared, I fell sad for Christine Brown, because in the end she still died. Too bad. I thought it would be a happy ending :D. Maybe this makes it not worth watching :D

It was a very nice Saturday for me. Even if my cough and flu is almost killing me : ( . It was the best Saturday of the month for the moment. :D

Doomsday went well :D

2009-06-11T14:24:00.001+08:00

I woke up early in the morning to start designing again. But! It was too bad. I was doomed. No internet connection. Damn!

I tried to call up the Costumer Service Hotline of our Internet Provider but was busy. I kept dialing and dialing and then "sorry, all circuits are busy now. Please try your call later". Fuck, I was really doomed.

I just played some computer games there that I had, Battle Realms, Warcraft, playing with just a computer opponent which is no challenge at all. Tick tock tick tock... I was really bored. I can't imagine the life without the internet again.

I exited the games and opened photoshop.
Dang! Expired?!?!?!? Whhaaat?.. GAOGEGOAGAOGa.. o.O T_T really really doomed. I tried designing without getting any help from the tutorials over the internet. But, I can't do it well. I just shut downed the computer and went to bath. I turned on the computer again and left it dialing and redialing to connect to the Internet. And then, I went to Billing station for our water and paid it.

I immediately went home. I walked the way until where I can ride home for only one way. But, I stopped to get some food near the Robinsons Cybergate, in Lanang, Davao City. I guess it was enough and I continued walking.

I reached the place where I can have a one way ride to home and immediately ride a tricycle and went home. Yeah, it was a good break though. I had food and some sweats. haha. When I arrived home, I rushed into the computer and see if I was able to connect. YES! Thank God. I was able to connect.

hahaha.. doom is over. But I still didn't continue redesigning. haha. Why? I felt tired and I just planned to watch my fav anime "my way of ninja", you guessed it, "Naruto Shippuden". Oh well, after few episodes I went to the cafe and left the computer open for my sister to use.

We played some multiplayer games with our houseboy. He's the same age as my younger bro who is addicted somehow to computer games.

After that, I went to writing this post. :D
and after this? what's next?
haha.. I don't know either:D

Well I hope, when I returned home. I can still able to connect to the internet. :D

Cheers! :D

"Doomsday is not to be feared. There are a lot of better things that happened than being doomed." -xin

Frustration in dedMind?

2009-06-10T12:25:00.001+08:00

For a long time it's been my dream to develop my own website design and here it is, dedMind.blogspot.com.

It was just a plan, but later became a hobby. This is my first time though, and for me, it's not bad at all.

dedMind template is a tweak of the template Minima Black by Douglas. I just tweaked it, because I had trouble in making my codes work in blogspot. But in other hosting site, it worked. I've been working with this for almost 4 days now. I was also studying while developing this website. I found out that, there's really a lot to learn.

I played a little with the CSS, and the Javascript(which made my navigator work). It's fun, but it really consumes a lot of time. Sitting in the computer almost 8 hours a day just to study and finish this site. Nah! I'm still a noob.

Sooner I will finish the blog design, and I hope, you will love it.

Links

2009-06-10T06:21:00.008+08:00

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